A recent conversation
with my papa talked about my future or rather, our future. Have you
experienced making plans, seeing this long uninterrupted straight
road ahead of you and looking forward to it. Suddenly, you are halted
due to “road works” ahead and then and there, have to make a
detour. 2011 & 2012 have been full of detours. With the recent
events concerning my crazy mother, what used to be a life of comfort
has become instead, chaotic. I find myself putting a hand in
household matters and expenses. Add to that my work, my social life
and family life.
So, we talked about my
future. School, work, marriage. Now, it’s marriage, school, work.
School. Further studies,
graduate school? The idea’s there. But not “there there.” Yes,
of course, I want to study more. To invest myself for the market out
there. But. Exactly what, I haven’t decided yet.
I love Economics, specifically geared towards development. But it’s
the after that I’m thinking about. What job and where? Papa gave me
a good advice. What is needed by the companies and from there, take
your masters. Yes yes, but not soon.
Marriage & kids? Soon
Honestly, papa couldn’t be more
discreet that he wanted GRANDCHILDREN. But I ask myself, am I ready
to become a mother, to mold the minds of children? What kind of
values will I teach and will I be a good example? I don’t know if
what happened at home will affect my relationship with my children
and my husband as well. It’s all very uncertain. However, just like
what happened in Cagayan De Oro during our water rafting, take a deep
breathe and get ready to be plunged in the unknown. On a side note,
that water rafting scared me out of my wits.
On a drive to work today,
I couldn’t help but ask, why do jeeps, buses and public utility
vans seem to have their own rules or they make their own rules? They
pass thru one-way streets, stop in the middle of the road, even
overtake when a car on the opposite side is approaching. And in the
end, they blame traffic enforcers, they blame the ones they had an
accident with. On a related topic, even our leaders and the people
they are leading. No matter how good a leader is, when the people
themselves have no discipline, nothing will happen. Discipline should
be taught, first & foremost, at home and strengthened in school
and applied in real life even during school days. Only when it has
been applied that this will be instilled in their whole being.
So frustrating.
